A transcribed talk, by David Spero in Palm Springs, California, April 16, 2002
The mood of meditation is the mood of sublimity itself. This sublime feeling can be described as the Inner Being falling into Itself, the Inner Being bowing down to Itself, surrendering into Itself, so that for a short moment, there is no “other,” no sense of otherness, no object-based perception. This is what I mean by sublime. It means to be released of oneself, transcend oneself easily, without friction, without effort, without fear. It’s a joy to feel one’s life merge into That which is beyond it.
At some blessed point, whose origin is unknown even to the Wise, meditation becomes transformed into the Meditator. The meditator arrives at Immeasurable Consciousness, becomes the Infinite Bliss of the Self. This is a Gift, a Divine Gift. No one knows the hour of arrival of such a Gift.
In the logic of time and space, that is, the logic of the body, the human nervous system and the finite mind, with its logic and reason, there are many so-called obstacles to becoming this Infinite Consciousness, this Unlimited Freedom, this full identity with the Absolute Consciousness. The mind invents reasons why it cannot be so and then it invents formulas to teach itself how to become That. It invents teachings, paths, practices. But the most natural thing is actually to become one’s Self. It’s the easiest thing, the most lovable thing of all.
In the presence of an Awakened Being who has come into the full feeling of the Heart, the Heart-Consciousness, these so-called obstacles whether they are real or imagined can be transcended, rapidly. That means there’s a Dissolving Power that emanates out of the Awakened Heart, the power of Dissolution itself. This Dissolution impacts, penetrates, into the body-mind of the recipient, the Heart-Friend and melts the density that seems to prevent Heart-Awakening from occurring.
The Gift that one who is Heart-Awakened offers is immeasurable. It’s the gift of human longing itself, resuscitated and revived within the Infinite Consciousness. Longing must be established, in a sense perfected, before the Awakened Heart can dawn in Its fullness; because it is the object…, (I don’t like that word object, but I’ll use it for the time being), because the Awakened Heart-Consciousness becomes the “object” of infinite longing.
So, the desire process itself becomes resuscitated, revived, reawakened in Consciousness, in Awakened Consciousness. And that Awakened-Heart-Force of pure desire is what discovers, what finds the Immeasurable Heart-Consciousness Itself. Once wanting is freed up from its fictions and its supposed limitations, then wanting will find the well of the Infinite Light, Love and Bliss.
You’ve probably been told the opposite, that desire needs to be eradicated and then you find the Infinite Consciousness. It’s all a question of perspective. When desire is full it also quietens, it becomes silenced. The self becomes silenced. The process of desire, though, is not extinguished through any temporary or partial or even Absolute Realization of the Transcendental Reality of the Self. Desire lingers. Desire continues. There is no experience within meditation or within spiritual life itself that could ever satiate the eternal hunger of the human/divine being.
There’s no difference between Awakening and suffering. The Infinite Consciousness continues to revel in desire long after Self-Awakening, after nirvikalpa samadhi, after full Transcendental Realization. The difference is that Consciousness now has gripped this body-mind that is full of the Love-Light and has Its way with that body-mind. It possesses that body-mind.
Consciousness becomes the resident along with all the other relative aspects of the personality: the ego, the mind, the intellect, the senses, the emotions. So, all of those relative dimensions have adjusted themselves, surrendered themselves to the presence of this Awakened Consciousness. And therefore, they fit in It. It doesn’t fit in them anymore. It is no longer metered out in specific instances of a life. It is now boundlessly present. It’s an Ocean of Liberated Bliss, full and overflowing, uncontainable, unbearable. This is where the desire mechanism floats, in this unbearable-ness of feeling, of Full-Feeling.
So, every cell of the body-mind is sipping this nectar of Enlightened-Feeling, Awakened-Feeling, Heart-Feeling. None of my words will capture what this actually is, but we can hint at it. We can suggest it and, in that suggestion, that hint, a taste may be acquired spontaneously, if there’s innocence, if there’s openness, without any sense of authority coming from me. Authority breeds fear and fear is of the essence of duality. So, there can be no authority in this process.
Right in this moment the Life-Shakti, the Currents of Energy and Delight are activated. Samadhi, Transcendental Awareness, is here. God-Inebriation is here. It’s easy to feel this. There is no obstacle that is more real or more substantial than this Core-Reality of Bliss and Love and Light. There is nothing that has more substance than this Awakened Condition.
At some point, if you are graced by good fortune, the experience of That and the conviction of That, even the mere mental conviction of It, become one. There’s this magical point of intersection where the Awakened Being merges with the understanding that such is so, that is so: so ham, “I am That.”
Until that magic moment appears the body-mind must simply unravel its story, its bliss-tragedy story. It must unravel and reveal its inherent story to itself until all meaning is transcended, all content is transcended. At some point even God is transcended, so that there’s no history, there’s no personal history and there’s no intellectual history that you have memorized from any kind of “text-book,” spoken or written. Your own life becomes the living reality that you study now, that you speak about, that you interact within, that you offer as a Gift.
Right in this present moment the activation of Reality in Its fullness, without any sense of detachment, is here, now. There’s no seeking for It. We listen with our whole being, not with our ears. We listen without listening. We hear without hearing and then the message of Pure Invisibility is given and received in an instant, in a flash.