Indefatigable Energy, October 20, 2009

When I come here, and I come here again and again, this location and others, I’ve noticed an indefatigable energy that’s present. It’s not me. It’s not my energy. It comes with me. I find it awakening into me, through me, into everything. It’s unceasing, indefatigable. It has no beginning or end. I call it the Shakti, Adi Parashakti. Para means beyond. It’s beyond Shakti. Adi means the single. So, Adi Parashakti is like Advaita Vedanta only spoken of in terms of energy. Adi Parashakti is the first energy, the primal or primordial energy of the Universe.

I could never fake this. Do you see this thing that happens to me again and again? I mean, wow, I deserve several Academy Awards all at the same time. If I could pull off something like this, like for eight years without a single variation, I want an award. I want it now. But, that’s not the case because I sense that it’s through falling through this superficial layer of individuality that the resurrection of this primordial force asserts itself with great poignancy, tremendous, unyielding insistence.

That’s because I’m clear that I have not mastered this. It’s not the result of self-mastery as the way people understand self-mastery. It has nothing to do with that. The Self is gone. It has to be. That must be the significance of the arising of indefatigable energy. It must mean that the small self, with its tiny agenda of willfulness and effort and exhaustion that comes out of that, must have been retired at some point. It’s just an inference. You can only infer. You can’t point directly at the truth and say, “That’s it.” It just doesn’t have that nature. It’s not gross like that. It’s something you’re in.